All the fitness He requires

I wasted the whole mile walk today not praying. I was in the stranglehold of a sinful meditation. I've got to pull myself out of this pit before I can even pray, I thought; I can't come to God in this condition.

I wonder what Judas was thinking just after he stumbled out of the upper room. We know he had remorse --- he didn't take the thirty pieces of silver but threw them into the temple. Maybe he was thinking like me: "I can't come to God in this condition. Gotta get myself right before I come. Gotta sulk a while. Gotta keep a respectful distance a while. I'll look shallow if I come running back right away."

Satan can do no better than that: Get the vermin thinking God won't accept them till they pull themselves up by their bootstraps. Get them thinking God needs a "cooling off period." Every fiber of my flesh tells me the same.

What I need to do is take sides with Scripture against my own feelings. All this sinful junk of mine is paid for, the written code canceled, cash on the nail (Colossians 2:14). More than that, sin will no longer master me (Romans 6:14). Lord, I am in the grip of a sinful meditation; I come naked, wretched, poor, and blind (Revelation 3:17). I don't want to wait till a better time; help me NOW!

"All the fitness He requires is to know your need of Him."